I can see you now

I can see you now leaving me for her. She'd have long eyelashes, cupid mouth and a dimpled smile. Her laughter would be a song that would play over and over. She would be sweet and forgiving, always trusting.Always. Mornings filled with the scent of hot tea and your laughter. And her laughter. A congregation of her joy and your joy. She would be what I never was, long legs and tan skin. You would draw shapes with your fingertips on her back like promises of love on paper. And you'd hear about me through whispers of someone or other. You would remember me, but only for a minute. Years would pass and fly at us. You filled with her laughter. We would meet on the streets of a crowded place by chance, my body heavy with child. You and I, and everything that was left unsaid and every kiss that was forgotten. You would remember our last passionate embrace, lips grinding against each other trying to steal each other's essence. The sigh before our lips disconnected. You would imagine a life of just you and me, of waking up each morning to hear my groggy voice, to see my pale skin as it seems to shine in the moonlight. To see me grow with the fruit of our promises and hopes. We would only speak certain pleasantries, and you'd only hear my voice caress you again in your dreams.

disappointed

I'll be giving up on you soon.

halloween is coming

costumes i should consider

my brother

wants to drop out of High School and get his GED, but he's only 16. What the fuck goes on in his head?

Boom i got your boyfriend.

Naw, I can do better.!




I am officially extremely without funds! A night of somewhat fun ends up in a week of not being able to buy anything, not even bread. ::cries:: I don't know if i might make it. Let's pray so. Writing something.

"An internal war goes on within me. This war cannot be controlled by simple words or actions, no treaties will save the disaster that is to come. All I can do is wait now."

fell in love with my favorite song yesterday

Today it's Friday. When the parties start, the music gets loud, I forget to remember and other unknown things. A little confused at the moment. A relapse of being forgiving, when i don't want to be. To remember the same person over and over and not want to remember. Time and people will heal that.
School is a little bland, i rarely make new friends. It's probably my face, i have heard I make a very intimidating expression when i walk alone but i can't help it. Lots of creeps and weirdos trying to talk to me on the streets and i don't want it to start on the school.
I want to get good at Left 4 dead as i feel like a n00b every time i play in the internet cafe.


L4D2?!

Lost in myself